so it feels like i've been here much longer than i actually have. i'm sick but it's ok.
we just finished up a week at this place called Hope Africa. it was a good week, but it was also very hard because we spent the week with children who were street children at one point or they have no parents or any guardians.
it was really good to be there. but it also was hard because it makes me wonder what we are doing to the children's understanding of love. we spent the week there and each person got close with several kids and it's hard NOT to love these kids. jonathan, i thought of you because i think that it's sad that mission trips have been so damaging and that there are so negative connotations with coming to an African country, but if it really was about the kids....your heart just feels like it will explode....and i know that's cheesy and typical, but i think its been cool to build up our friendships from last year and even some from the year before...i can't imagine never coming back.
you probably all hate that and think i'm full of shit. but don't worry i have my doubts and fears and all sorts of things too...but i don't have enough time for all that...and it's hard to write about so i just wanted to focus on the good. just for my own sake. so sorry for being selfish.
dork i miss you :)
and my BEE... what the heck?? not one thing from you.
love love love.
karen
karen,
ReplyDeletesabes que? te extrano. mas de la cuenta... demasiado. :( pero yo se que estas bien y se que regresaras entonces eso me da aliento. ji ji. aqui te van algunos pensamientos pa que penses, si queres. :)
siempre hay que ser concientes de nuestas acciones. siempre tenemos que ser ultra sensibles para no hacer que nuestra presencia sea un estorbo mas que una ayuda. yo se que has de estar pensando en todas estas cosas y has de estar tratando de razonar, de sentir, de corregir y mas que todo de saber donde se encuentra Dios en medio de todo esto. nosotros como tus amigos no tenemos ningun lugar para criticarte... no sos una mas de los "misioneros comunes" que van y hacen sus tiraderos por el mundo, no, sos nuestra amiga, una mujer sabia y sensata, fuerte e inteligente, y para mi, sos mi hermana de corazon asi que se lo que estas pasando porque pase por lo mismo. solo te quiero ayudar a alentar para que sepas que al final de cuentas lo que importa no sos vos sino los resultados de este viaje ya sean espirituales o materiales.
ora, ora a lo loco... ora sin estarte atada a tus juicios y a tus inseguridades que Dios no nos puede hablar claro si no dejamos a lado esas cosas. decile lo que sentis desde el fondo de tu corazon.
dont feel like you have to validate yourself before us... or explain this or that. we are not who you need to be accountable to.
te mando una oracionsita que halle. que a la mejor te ayuda. :)
I am young. I know very few things about life. They have spoken to me about autumns. there are no autumns in your spheres. I have heard that love is poisoned by the poisons of tedium and routine. they even speak of desertion and indifference, things that are unimaginable to me. i know that the flag of faith will always flutter in your bell tower, and that you will carefully guard my gift in your golden coffer until the end of time.
st clare of assisi
te quiero. wow.
yeah, sorry. my post is longer than your blog... eek.
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